Enough is enough , i'm sick and tired . First , second , third ...... times of quarrelling and fights . This relationship doesnt seems to be stable and what i hope for anymore . Our character doesnt match at all , both of us doesnt have a good temper . Quarrelling is much more of the part in this relationship than Joy . What i want is how we always envious others outside , Envious them being so loving . Yeah , i know quarrellings is part of the growth of a relationship . But this is really the first time i'm going through fights Every SINGLE DAYS . Even if you're not tired and find it normal , i really find it too hard to accept and getting sick of it . Everyone sees us outside feels that we're really a ideal & sweet couples out there , but this aint the Facts you're seeing . What happen today makes me think , makes me learnt , makes me and asked me to Give up . Should i or Shouldnt' i ? More of my friends told me they have got this kind of problem with their boyfriend too . Their boyfriend got severe Attitude problem , everything which is relate to B/f relationship . I don't wish to have any regrets in my mind after the second incidents . But this time , I have got nothing to say any much more .


Being together with you in this months ,
Was a great learning trail for me .
We went through every ups & down together in the past .
You told me you want me to be your Last .
But Alot of things is beyond of our control .
There's too much things kept in my heart that i hope and would like you to know .
But everytime when i wanted to say ,
it stuck there .
I wish to let you know ,
What i dislike ,
why am i upset ,
Why i'm smiling ,
Why i'm nagging ,
Why i want you to change .
But i just cant tell you face to face .
Sometimes it's rather torturing when i cant even tell you things i kept in my heart for so long .
I hope you would know me deep inside ,
So that we wouldn't quarrell .
I hope my temper can change ,
so that i can also tolerate your unreasonable acts .
How much i hope and tell you personally that ,
How much i Love you .
But everything ,
I don't know whether it's too late anot .
The best way now ,
is to cool down & give each other more time .
Cause we really still don't know each other well .
I may not be an ideal girlfriend ,
But i'm still a girlfriend who can accept the way you're for so long .
You're a good guy .
But you do not have a good temper .
You always think you're right ,
others is wrong .
What i hope for you now is that ,
You can have some self-reflect .
Rewind back EVERY fights and quarrells we had in the pasts .
Think carefully ,
What are the things which lead to all this stupid quarrells .
May i hope that you could find a ideal girlfriend ,
Who could tolerate , cook for you , accept your empty promises everytimes .
Everything i could do in this relationship ,
She can do want in this period when where we needa cool down .
Once you're ready ,
I'll be also ready to hear what you would tell me next .
And last ,
I also wanted to tell you ,
I have never wanted to be so serious in relationship anymore .
Cause being hurt in so many countless of times ,
You wouldn't wanna try again .
You make me love you so much ,
But you make me so disappointed in you too .
When can you let me gain back my trust from you ?
Sigh ,
No point saying all this anymore .


I'm supposed to concentrate on my this coming Mid-year exams than doing some stupid stuff out here . I must get at least average gradings . Than i can get a job on my holidays >< JiaYou ! ^^