Meet T.Meiling for breakfast in the morning , Went back home to changed Clothes than headed back to her house and Changed clothes too . Meet Jiali and WenHong at Polyclinic . Went to Hke and slacked awhile. Cabbed down to Bugis and get my Clothings. Spent toooo much money today . Oh Gosh . I'm broke . Fuck . Two more days to new year already . Hmm , guess i'm gonna spend this valentine alone again >< Asshole is always calling me after he finished working and only know how to make me angry and Ka me . Anyway,I'm used to it . But sometimes it's rather irratating & sometimes will make me laugh >< So i really dont know i should angry or Laugh -.- I cant bear to throw temper at him , so should i or rather be happy ^^


Asshole , 2 more days was actually or supposingly to be our 1month monthsary . But i know it's impossible to celebrate this monthsary on the 12th anymore . And i dont even dare to think you would be there for me on the 14th . I know and expected it would be I , myself celebrating Valentine alone . This is the 11th days we have been separated . Although we maybe still like how we used to be or so on , But everything in this reality is so much different now . How much i 'm hoping there's one fine day , You really had see how much i changed for you and myself ; putting effort, sacrifise so much for you , You'll call me 'Dear' & say 'Chan Rhuk Khun Mak Mak' once again . I Dont know if the day will come anot . But i just hope for the Best . I know i should face the reality . But i Dont dare and dont wish to . No matter how strong am i , still , I need you . I need what you had given me in the past & how you used to treat me . How much changes had changed in my Life now , I still wont change the Love for you . You know how much i Love you . But you just kept it in your heart . I really wish you could tell me what you're thinking right now & of course you're telling me the truth . Although i lied to you is the reason we had separated . But i had really realised and amending my mistakes already . If time were to turn back , I would hold your hand and hug you tightly , not to let you off and cherished you . Remembering and not to break the promise i had said . I hope what you have said in the past was from the bottom of your heart and trueful enough . I'm praying everyday not just only we're flashing back our memories and to see in our future . Maybe all this is just a crap to you , but it's all from the deep down bottom from my heart .. Although we're just only friends in status , but i really don wish to see you doing things at my back .. I have no right to control you , is just that i'm tooo afraid to lose you .
Takecare my Love .
I Love you .
Chan rhuk khun mak mak ><