Ever since we have not contact ,
My mind ,
My heart is blank .
My Life is dull .
I became Lifeless .
I don't want what i want to do next .
I got no goals in my Life .
In the past ,
I thought i can do anything because you're here by my side .
And , I'm definitely wrong .
There's many things happened today.
Today is a terrible& indescribedable weekend for everyone of us.
Especially X.baby& Me .
She was hurt physically and mentally .
I'm trying not to think of you anymore .
But everytime they mentioned your name ,
I cant help by not thinking of you .
You gave me hopes and gave me hell .
My Life is now worse than the Hell gates !
I saw you today ,
And my tears almost ,
almost rolled out .
But i still managed to hold it back.
Why must i be strong infront of you ?
I cried to sleep ,
I have been having bad dreams .
When i woke up ,
I grabbed my phone and see .
There's msges and calls ,
But not from you .
Other than you ,
No one can make me smile and giggle infront of the phone .
I have loads of billions of Troubles .
I'm really afraid i cant take it anymore .

I'm just a normal human beings.
I'm just a girl .
Why am i suffering from all this things ?
Problems comes and goes .
But when can it stop ?
Why can't i have peaceness just one day ?
God, is always giving me something and take away something at the same time.
But now ,
God is really tooo greedy and take away too many things from me .
My beloved Sis ,
And my Love one .
Why am i so foolish with every decision i make ?
Why am i always the one who's suffering ,
Yet you're enjoying out there ?
Why everytime time problems ocurred and i'm the last to know ?
Why do i have to act a strong person infront of others?
Why do i have to listen to you ?
My brain is cracking ,
Is bursting .
My Heart is stopping .
I just cant accept the facts .
I just cant go back to the reality .
You're like killing me .

I cant get used to how my life is leading without you .
I Dont wish to contact you ,
Because i don wanna make you feel i'm irritating .
I don wan you to think i am interfering your Life .
Lastly ,
I dont want you to Hurt me ANYMORE !

I miss you badly ,
I need you insanely .
Thanks to you who land me in this state (:

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