Call you Baby ?
I dont know .
We're tgt this morning at While Dolphin Pub .
24Oct , 3.20am.
It's been so sweet of you from the way you courted me (:
The glance of smile on your face really make me blushed when you get your face is closed to me .
We have make each other alot of promises before getting tgt ..
As i'm afraid history will repeat again .
He's going in this year dec already .
I just want a sweet and memorable memories before he go in ..
And of course , i wanna wait for him ..
At last , I accept his court .
Jason went off first ,
I'm sorry Jason . This is my choices .
After that went off , baby meeting his friend .
And all of them is also know de !
Alamark so paiseh , saw eng hao they all .
Eng hao was like , HUH ? You her girlfriend uhs ??!! WOW , AISEH !
LOLOLOL !! After that went off , Baby went to take his RVF .
Went to Mount faber for our honeymoon (:
So sweet , really .. It's been so long i feel like this . it's been so long , so long..
We talk alot alot... So much so much.
How i wish time can stuck at that moment .
Lying near the beach , only the two of us .
It was like the world belong to the two of us only..
lying on your chest , hug tightly by his two arms .
I feel so being protected , no one is going to hurt me.
Hand in hand , chatting tgt ..
Baby say wil get me a new helmet with my names written on it (:
Hope so .
while we're walking to our bike ,
he told me something , he ask me do i think whether we're abit too fast to be tgt . I know he's like hinting me . My heart sanks, my tears just rolled down .
I dont know why , it's so funny , so uncontrolleble .
He's afraid i will bluff him , i'm afraid he'll cheat me . so funny .
Finally, he tell me the true . He still cant forget his ex .
I know , I knew it . Shall give each other three days .
I dont know what the answer will be .
I'm afraid , but i have to face it . I have to be strong .
I really dont wish to drop anymore tears for guys anymore!
But for him , I CANT! I REALLY CANT !
The whole journey , i'm crying .
I have nv cry like this infront of anyone before .
Since you say like this , why do you still have to give me kiss ?
Why do you still wanna ask me i still want you anot ?
When i reached home , why do you still say you wanna buy my personal helmet for me ? WHY ?
DO you know how i feel like this ? you'll make me she bu de .
DO YOU KNOW ?
Why do you have to treat me like this ?
I really getting ready to get into this love , i'm ready to put in all my love and effort in . What i want was , this two months before you go in , we can have a memories . Why things become like this ? WHY ?
Do you know when you went off ,
I really burst into tears in my room . I control my tears when i enter my house.
i don want to let mom see me like this .
Sorry mummy , i threw temper on you . I'm really moodless
I reached home at 7am , i sleep at 9 . Woke up at 10 .
Just waiting for your text , but i din recieved .
Everyone called me this morning was scolded by me . I'm sorry .
I cant sleep at all . I dreamed of the two of us tgt , at the beach ..
Like how we're ytd ..I asked you why you like me ,
you said bcos i'm cute and i make you wanted to protect me , and dote on me .
I haven been sleeping ,
I really don know what did i do to deserve all this .. I really dont hope for more . Just want your love , care and protection only ? Is that too much ?
You say i'm a very nice girl ? Nice but you dont wan ?
Maybe i'm nt good enough for you ?
The last thing , from the bottom of my heart :

Thanks , thanks for being my boyf for just that 4 hours . You left me a memorable memories , I'll nv forget this day we went through tgt .. I felt being loved, dote and protected by you .Once again , you been asking do i really love you ? The answer is Yes . Please dont doubt on me . I really love you . Whether anot , what will happen in the next three days , no one will knows . Let thing take it natural course bah . Remember, there's always a place for you in my heart . You 're the key to enter into my world . I love you , Baby ..

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